a never ending supply of money, a farm, that everyone was vegan
29) Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
oh geez, i have a lot. i used to bite my nail but i stopped doing that, i eat a lot when i’m bored, i used to lie a lot, i don’t so much anyone, i immediately try to make everyone like me when i meet someone, also i hate yawning, i don’t know if that counts for anything. when i reach an important change in my life i need to do something drastic like get a piercing or tattoo, at the very least dye my hair, no matter what i’m doing, the first website i check is facebook even if i’m just getting on to get something from an email or something. i have to say hi to josephine every time i enter my apartment, i have to sleep with a night light and a fan, i have a nervous habit of putting my hair behind my ears. believe me, there are a lot more but i doubt anyone cares.
crazy. i’ve been working so much that my life has become the same thing over and over again: wake up, shower, work, come home, eat dinner, play sims, sleep and repeat. i’m really freakin cold though, on another note.
geez, i don’t know. i’m going to say my favorite was when griffin and i got back together and we saw each other for the first time in months, it was outside of the mall and we hugged and i asked him if i could kiss him and he said of course so we kissed and we were both crying and it was just craziness.
27) Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
i don’t know. i’d really like to visit san francisco for some reason.
-meisner, getting my bee and heart tattoos, griffin and i’s vacation, the huge snow storm, griffin being in china
2: Relationship(s). griffin and i are still together and going strong, we’ve really grown together and i’m so happy we decided to work on our relationship because i HONESTLY can’t think of anyone better for me. i love him so much.
3: The best day. - i’m gonna say my birthday or some day on vacation. my birthday this year was so awesome and vacation was just amazing, we had so much fun and i wanted to stay there forever.
4: The worst day. - when i thought i was going to have to drop out of uarts. things were going horribly with my then meisner partner and i kept having panic attacks and i thought i would have to leave for my own mental health. thank god for ernie losso.
5: The most memorable moment. - geez, i dont even know. i really loved the mornings on vacation when i would go out on the private beach and play with the horse shoe crabs. 6. Your best friend(s) - kim and sara. kim i started working with last summer and we basically fell in love. kim and i have the best time working and i love her. sara i haven’t seen in too long and i hate it. i miss hanging out with her and watching we sing in sillyville, i guess that’s what i get for living in philly.
7: Your birthday. - it was awesome. griffin and i went to different museums in dc and went to java green for lunch, then we met up with my family at carrabbas, went home, and ate cake.
8: The funnest getaway. - griffin and i’s vacation to ocean city, it was just so awesome.
9: The end of last school year/the beginning of this one. - i was so ready to leave. i dont have many friends at school at all and wanted to come back home and work and hang out with my friends here. this year i still love living by myself and i’m loving everything i’m learning.
10: New Year resolutions. same one as every year, to treat myself better.
so i started messing with my guitar and my hand started to hurt after about 5 minutes. maybe learning the guitar wasn’t the best idea. not to mention my trigger finger kept fucking with me. looks like i’m going to have to get the surgery after all. boo.
I wanted to post my presents because they make me happy. anything not in a parentheses is from my mom
christmas eve presents:
a beeeeeautiful blouse from lulus.com (from my aunt)
seal necklace, sparrow bobby pins, cute animals hugging pins, wii memory card, camera memory card (all from griffin)
under the tree:
sims 3 late night expansion pack
sims 3 high end loft stuff pack (from my sister)
an ibanez acoustic guitar complete with tuner, strap, picks and case (which i don’t know how to play)
portia de rossi’s new book
a book on new hoop tricks
"show me how" book
rocky horror blu ray
2 new dresses
a gray urban outfitters sweater
a letter holder
2 lucky brand necklaces
lots of socks
new set of make up brushes
a cooling laptop desk thingy
vegan gummy bears
in my stocking:
lush bath bomb
victoria’s secret lip gloss
"butter" nail polish (really pretty teal color)
$50 itunes gift card and $50 starbucks gift card (both from dad)
so basically it’s a pretty awesome christmas and it’s not even over! on new years day we have “christmas” over my mom’s side of the family’s house. not to mention my new laptop coming next week (even though i’m going to be paying for some of it). woohoo!
it’s been really good! i love getting ready for christmas and being home.
25) Write about your first kiss.
it was horrible. i was in 8th grade and i was “dating” this guy for like 2 weeks and we were at the park and he kissed me. he was about 5 inches shorter than me and had really thin chapped lips. never the less, i was thrilled at the time.
alright so merry christmas everyone! this morning was so awesome, i actually wasn’t the first person awake! so, we all woke up and opened presents and got everything i wanted and more. all was well until i tried to load a game on my computer and found it wasn’t reading any kind of cds. my sister’s bf thought it was busted because nothing was reading on it and a couple months ago i smelled something burning while i was playing sims. so basically all i can do on my computer right now is go online, my mom ordered me a new laptop that i will slowly be paying her back for considering i’m starting to work again on monday. after that, my sister started playing with this toy that basically is a little robot shaped like a bug and it runs around. well, that ended up going down the vent so we then spent about 3 hours tearing apart our ducts trying to get the thing out, alas, we couldn’t get to it but damn we tried. basically after that i started playing with my new guitar! i was so surprised when i opened it because i had no idea i was going to get a guitar, i’m really excited for it though considering i’m taking guitar lessons next semester. anyway, now my parents and i are sitting by the fireplace and just finished watching toy story 3. basically it’s been a good day, but a bit hectic.
i’ve been waking up at 7am ever since i got home for break. i don’t know why, it’s starting to get annoying. in other news, it’s christmas eve! today i plan on helping my mom clean and cook and then going over my aunt’s house for dinner and presents. after we’re done there, we’re going to go visit my grandma in her rehab center. i hope it’s not too hard to see her like that but from what i hear, it’s not too bad. i’m so excited for christmas, it’s ridiculous.
Whether you acknowledge it or not, there’s a child inside you who needs tending, Virgo. You’re proud of the person you’ve become - and well you should be. But you’re the product of who you once were. Today’s planetary positions suggest you acknowledge all parts of your past - the good and the bad. Only after you’ve integrated all the elements can you be the person you’re meant to be
holy geez. um it’s changed a lot. i’ve been becoming more and more confident which has been awesome, i’ve been becoming more independent and not relying so much on my boyfriend to make me happy (thanks to him being in china). i’ve learned a lot about myself and what makes me happy or mad and being ok with it. it’s really been a fantastic year.
my favorite part of christmas is seeing other people open the presents i got them, and i’m not just saying that to sound good.
19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
my last birthday was awesome, griffin took me to dc and we went to some museums, went to this awesome vegan cafe for lunch, then came back and went to carrabbas for dinner, then we came home and ate cake. i have no idea what i’m doing for my next birthday, i usually don’t know until that week.
ok, in 2006 my boyfriend and i started dating, we broke up about 2 years later for about 2 months then got back together, then broke up again for about 6 months and got back together a year and a half ago. basically, we needed to grow up and see other people to realize we really wanted each other and no one else. now, our relationship is great and strong and we’re really happy :)
i can’t fucking handle all these girls with their “thinspiration” blogs. BE YOUR FUCKING SELVES! you DO NOT need to fit into someone elses idea of beauty or fashion. i’m so sick of it. yes, i work out, is it to be thin? NO! it’s to be in shape and healthy. you people need psychiatric help, honestly, something is wrong.
14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
my favorite book is white oleander, the same with my favorite movie. my favorite band is probably the weepies and fave food changes a lot but i basically like any kind of pasta.
15) Write about something you worry about a lot.
oh geez, what DON’T i worry about? i have a generalized anxiety disorder so i basically worry about everything. mostly though, i guess it would have to be the future and making enough money to live. i don’t plan on having kids so that will help but i do want a lot of animals so i have to make sure i can support myself and them. i guess that’s the scariest part of being an actress.
i’ve talked to a few people today about evaluations tomorrow and most people are kind of freaking out. then i remembered myself at this time last year and i remembered how much i was freaking out about them. but it’s different this year, i’m fine. i hadn’t really even thought about them before someone asked me if i was freaking out. so i tried to figure out why i wasn’t this semester. the conclusion i came to was pretty overwhelming, i’m really proud of myself. i can’t believe i can say that but i really am. i’ve done my best this semester and i never gave up when i was discouraged, i pushed through all of it. yes, i’ve made a lot of mistakes too but at this point, they’re done and there’s nothing else i can do. basically, the bottom line is i’m proud of myself so it doesn’t really matter what anyone else says, and this, my friends, is a damn good feeling.
i was just talking to griffin about this today. basically, i want to be betty white when i grow up, honestly.
"I’m the luckiest old broad on two feet because my life is divided absolutely in half - half animals and half show business. You can’t ask for better than two things you love the most."- Betty White
that sums up how i want my life to be only with the stage instead of movies. sometimes i’m confused because people say to be a good actress, that has to be your only passion. i don’t believe that at all. i have so much passion for animals and acting and i’ll be damned if anyone will stand in the way of fulfilling both the desire to be a good actress and to help animals.
i already did this in a previous challenge and i don’t feel like writing about it again lol.
12) Write about the worst day of your life.
probably the day i found out an old boyfriend i had for 3 years slept with some random girl only 2 months after we broke up. we were both still in love with eachother and even though yes, we were broken up, we had been together for so long that it just hit really hard that he could so easily move on.
this week is going to be so awesome, i’m so excited. yes, it’s finals week and i should be freaking out but i’m really feeling pretty good about this semester’s grades. the only one i’m iffy on is theatre history but hopefully i’ll rock the final and be ok. most of my finals are on monday, tuesday i only have one (but it’s theatre history), wednesday i have my evaluation and then my sister is coming to visit so we can go shopping, then thursday i have my last final and then my mom is coming to sleep over so we can leave friday morning! :) i’m so happy
10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
the one thing i’ll always remember is when i broke up with my boyfriend of 3 1/2 years and he got wicked angry at me, which i guess i understand. but it’s not like i did anything to him, we both knew we were growing apart. anyway, his infant niece passed away a week after we broke up and i told him how sorry i was and i hoped he was doing ok, his response was “don’t ever talk to me again, you heartless cunt, i want to forget the past 3 years ever happened with you.” that hurt so bad because i really was in love with him for 3 years and for him to say that just crushed me. we haven’t spoken since.
9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
unfortunately, i usually remember the bad things people have said to me as opposed to the good. i really don’t remember. i remember david howey telling me that my scene was the best he had seen all day and my talent is very promising etc. that, professionally, was the nicest thing anyone has said to me.